Gosh, I've been getting comments, and emails, all worried about me, and while I must say, I'm quite touched by it all, but please, don't waste the energy.
Yeah, I miss my wife and babies, but I went to dinner tonight at my parent's house, with my sister, and my daughter and granddaughter, who is just a dream.
Yes, I sleep a lot. Yes, I can barely eat. One of my medications has taken away my ability to taste food, and much of my appetite. My liver is dying by inches, and taking me with it. Some days I quite frankly just want to die.
Doing that by my own hand would steal so much from my family, and piss on any legacy I possibly have, including my last several years here. So it ain't gonna happen.
Though there are some days when it is hard, so hard, to stick around.